No (k)Not

Thought everything,
Was going fine,
'til I took an overview,
Of introspect.

What did I expect?
To escape what's due?
So, I thought I'd sew,
A stitch in time,
And, fix that,
Which I call mine,
Pulling the needle through,
But... what?!!?!
The thread,
Has no knot,
Though I've racked my head,
Now I know, 
There's nothing,
I can do,
No.  Not...
A single thing,
Within view.

Thought everything,
Was going fine,
'til I took an overview,
Of introspect.

With due respect,
You're a cause, too,
Peering in my window,
It is you,
Casting a shadow,
So, if you don't mind,
I hope you'll be kind,
And, let the light shine through?

Then, give me a hand,
With a thing of two?
It appears all,
Has come undone,
So, just for fun,
I'll try to settle,
Our balance due,
And, though it may seem sublime,
I'll try to sew a stitch in time!

Thimble to needle,
Push, push, pull,
But, once past the sticking point,
The thread,
Just keeps passing,
Unhindered,
Continuing,
Because the filament,
Has no knot,
Surely, this was not meant...
Not meant to be,
The end of me.

Will the stars anoint,
Will my soul be led,
Can I conjure,
Our deus?
"Ohhhh... please help us!
And, ensure,
My head is fed,
With a settlement."

No.  Not to beg for help,
That was not my plan,
No.  Not to squeal and yelp --
A pathetic (little) man,
No.  Not to beg for mercy,
For what we've done,
No.  Not to wince in fear,
Trembling from anxiety,
No.  Not to shed a tear,
Over my self-pity,
No.  Not no.
Uh Oh... 
No.
Not no.